October 2, 2026
Division as Strategy
Control often survives by turning hearts against each other. A Chapter 3 reflection on recognizing division, refusing to become an audience, and choosing truth over alliances.
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Reflections for the road ahead.
On faith, honesty, freedom, and what it means to face the places we would rather hide.
October 1, 2026
A Glimpse of Hope: God Does Not Waste Brokenness
Exposure is not humiliation, it is transformation. A Chapter 2 reflection on letting God meet the broken places with truth, purpose, and hope.
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September 28, 2026
Hostility When Confronted
The rage erupts because you noticed. A Wicked Love, Chapter 3 reflection on accountability, self-trust, and refusing to confuse hostility with truth.
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September 25, 2026
Triangulation & Slander
Whispered narratives can fracture what truth never broke. A Wicked Love, Chapter 3 reflection on refusing manipulation, protecting your voice, and walking in truth.
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September 24, 2026
Drop the Stone: The Grace We Owe Each Other
A devotional reflection on John 8, mercy, self-examination, and choosing grace over condemnation.
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September 23, 2026
Healing Through Vulnerability: Taking Off the Armor
Confession can lift a weight you did not realize you were carrying. A Chapter 2 reflection on vulnerability, truth, and allowing healing to begin.
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September 22, 2026
Seduction as Strategy
What feels like a divine connection can be the opening move in a pattern of control. A Wicked Love, Chapter 3 reflection on discernment, truth, and protecting your peace.
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September 18, 2026
The Blueprint of Control
Control rarely announces itself at the door. A Wicked Love, Chapter 3 reflection on recognizing the pattern behind manipulation, isolation, confusion, and reclaiming your voice.
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September 16, 2026
The Cost of Hiding
Sin thrives in secrecy, but loses power in the light. A Chapter 2 reflection on the cost of hiding and the honest path toward freedom.
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September 14, 2026
The Silent Treatment & Character Erosion
Damage rarely happens all at once. A Wicked Love reflection on how the silent treatment can slowly wear away your confidence, voice, and sense of self.
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September 11, 2026
Discard & Hoovering
The promise that they have changed can pull you back into the same pain. A Wicked Love reflection on recognizing the reset loop and choosing clarity.
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September 9, 2026
Childish Behaviors in a Grown Man
Unhealed wounds do not disappear with age. A Chapter 2 reflection on healing the boy within and choosing a more honest way to live.
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September 7, 2026
The Spiritual Weight of Narcissistic Love
The emotional toll is obvious, but the spiritual weight can drain your soul. A Wicked Love reflection on naming what keeps you bound.
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September 4, 2026
The Seduction & The Shift
From pedestal to punishment, the change was not random. A Wicked Love reflection on recognizing when admiration becomes control.
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September 2, 2026
The Finger Pointing Back at Me
Healing begins when we stop looking everywhere else and face the broken places within. A Chapter 2 reflection from Diary of a Troubled Preacher.
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August 31, 2026
Living Invisible in the Same House
The silent treatment is emotional starvation. A Wicked Love reflection on the loneliness of being unseen by the person beside you.
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August 28, 2026
Why the Good Ones Stay Too Long
You do not stay because you are weak. You stay because you still have hope. A Wicked Love reflection on releasing what keeps you bound.
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August 26, 2026
The End of the Masquerade
Trading performance for peace begins when we face the truth. A Chapter 1 reflection from Diary of a Troubled Preacher.
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August 24, 2026
The Illusion of Reconciliation
Reconciliation without accountability is impossible. A Wicked Love reflection on the difference between real repair and returning to the same harm.
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August 21, 2026
Unmasking the Pattern & Step into Freedom
Wicked love can hide behind charm, confusion, and control. Naming the pattern is not the end of the story. It is the beginning of clarity, healing, and freedom.
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August 19, 2026
Truth as Deliverance: Why Light Does Not Destroy You
Truth may expose what has been hidden, but exposure is not the end of the story. A reflection on conviction, grace, and the courage to step into the light.
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August 17, 2026
Slander, Triangulation, and the Splitting of Ministry
When false narratives gather an audience, the loss reaches far beyond one relationship. A reflection on truth, community, and reclaiming your voice.
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August 15, 2026
The Collateral Damage: When Brokenness Bleeds onto Others
An honest reflection on how hidden brokenness can wound the people closest to us, and why owning the ripple effect is the beginning of healing.
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When Love Shifts into a Weapon
Series: Wicked Love (Weekly Reflections) Post: #1 - When Love Shifts into a Weapon Source: Wicked Love , Chapter 1 The Shift You Didn't See Coming I didn't know love could turn wicked. Not at first. W…
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August 13, 2026
Facing God’s Mirror - Moving Beyond Performance
"For years, I held up that mirror for others while refusing to look into it myself." - Diary of a Troubled Preacher James compares the Word of God to a mirror (James 1:23 - 24). I knew how to preach holin…
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August 11, 2026
The Fortress of Deception - Breaking Down Self-Made Lies
"Lies don't stay small - they become strongholds." - Diary of a Troubled Preacher Long before I ever stood behind a pulpit, I became an expert at lying to myself. I convinced myself that as long as the ano…
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August 8, 2026
The War I Fought in Silence
“Some battles aren’t fought in public - they’re fought in the quiet corners of the soul.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher I didn’t lose my peace in a crowd; I lost it in silence. The war wasn’t against…
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August 6, 2026
The First Confession
“Confession isn’t weakness - it’s the sound of chains breaking.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher I remember the silence before my first confession. It felt like standing at the edge of a cliff, knowing tha…
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August 4, 2026
The Fear of Being Seen
“Exposure feels like death until you realize it’s resurrection.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher Before truth set me free, fear kept me hidden. Not fear of God - fear of people. Fear of being seen for who…
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August 1, 2026
The Moment the Mask Cracked
“The mask doesn’t break when you’re ready - it breaks when you’re exhausted.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher There’s a moment when pretending becomes unbearable. Mine didn’t happen in a pulpit or a prayer …
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July 30, 2026
Freedom Begins Where Honesty Lives
“Freedom doesn’t start with perfection - it starts with honesty.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher When I finally stopped hiding, I discovered something I never expected: freedom wasn’t waiting at the end…
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July 28, 2026
The Cost of Living a Lie
Chapter 1: “Starting with the Truth.” Publish Date: July 28, 2026 “Every lie we live demands payment - and the currency is peace.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher. Before truth set me free, deception k…
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July 25, 2026
Truth Isn’t the Enemy - It’s the Deliverance
“Truth doesn’t destroy; it delivers. It doesn’t condemn; it confronts.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher For years, I feared truth because I confused it with punishment. I thought exposure meant rejection. Bu…
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July 23, 2026
Starting with the Truth - The Freedom of Facing Yourself
“Truth is both a gift and a wound. It heals, but it hurts first - especially when you’ve spent your life hiding.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher For years, I treated truth like an intruder. I could preac…
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July 21, 2026
Starting with the Truth - The Freedom of Facing Yourself by Apostle Andre' D. Fullwood
“Truth is both a gift and a wound. It heals, but it hurts first - especially when you’ve spent your life hiding.” - Diary of a Troubled Preacher For years, I treated truth like an intruder. I could preach h…
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December 7, 2025
When the Pulpit Meets the Pain - Reflections from Diary of a Troubled Preacher
There are times in life when the mask slips, when the polished sermons and public smiles can no longer cover the private battles raging inside. Chapter One of Diary of a Trouble Preacher shows us that hidden, untapp…
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